You were never know how I feel.Even I tell you the reason now, Would you care? Or rather you just say you don't believe me. I don't know. How you feel, how you think, ya I never know. Trust before so much, Now it seem to be so different. Others are important then me, I know. What they said, they asked I don't really care. But in my heart still, The pain it hurts so much that you never ever thought. Last time and until now, I still feel so important because i trust you, the words that you said before, are still in my mind. Is just that the person is gone. I Lose it. The heart was all along there. I know myself more then anyone do and you all should not comment's who am i, what i done. Its okay to do that. Its all over, Blames all put on me, I think i can solve it by myself?! I now than know what is trust. Even the closest one, can betrayed it. Giving a chance, it's look like nothing. I have feeling as you all have too. I can't tell what problems i facing now. And now, I tell you, You won't understand me now and ever. And i said forever, I break the promise. Ya I'm sorry. I being force. You won't know what problems i face everyday. Each day, I breaking down. nvm. I just want you to know, I'm always by your side. 5 days count down, the day that i going to celebrate, but now, no use. As i won't be in Singapore. Don't know whether want to buy things for... Hope you are happy. I think i can only do is open the book and read through... What is love? "To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down."
Missing you @ 11/24/2009 02:16:00 PM