Regretted!Do you all happy now that i choose basketball and give up that i love the most?! =.-
You only see what I choose to show, But there is a lot that you don't know. I regret a lot because I knew, Just how wrong they were to do. It was really stupid and now I suffer. From all the things I used to cover. I let it out 'cause I thought it was right, But all it gave me was a lot of fright. Some people know and others don't. All the other people always won't!
Why did I decide to change the course of my life? I was impatient and naive that I let people take advantage of me. My life has turned up side down and now it is crashing down. I thought I could find love and hold it, blindly I went for it. And tried to hold on to someone I felt the same. But only cause myself heartache and pain, because somebody keep blocking our way. I gave all that I had my mind and body and soul. For what, only to be told that I was the one she wanted to hold. That I was just someone she could control. You don’t know what that has done to me. How stupid am I that I cry and cry. Cry out why? Why? Then I am reminded of the choices I had made. Those choices have changed my life completely. I have done this to myself. No one is to blame. I thought if I ignored the pain. The pain would go away and things would change. But I was wrong things have changed. I do not feel the same. For what was once love has turned to hate, but i wont easily give up my love for her. And now I must make my escape because someone keep forcing me to do that. Basketball! Suck it. Force me to no end, I tell you, How hard you all had tried, There always no change. I will love her forever. I meant it! <3>
Missing you @ 11/06/2009 01:11:00 PM